Your life is a sacred journey. And it is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition, taking courageous challenges at every step along the way. You are on the path... exactly where you are meant to be right now... And from here, you can only go forward, shaping your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, of healing of courage, of beauty, of wisdom, of power, of dignity, and of love. Caroline Adams
While I was recuperating at my brother's house from my surgery, my mother made a chart for me to keep up with all the little things one needs to do in recovery. After the week or so of doing it, I realized that my mind is quite forgetful, and I loved being able to see my healing progress right there in black and white.
When I came home, I thought I would make an even bigger chart to see where my time is being spent and to learn more about my habits of life that have formed over the years. Are these habits in my best interest? Do they encourage me to grow and expand or do they keep me small? Are my daily habits helping me to move forward or are they keeping me stuck in the same rut?
My discoveries were right there in black and white, and the page was screaming it's time to make some big changes.
So I am.
Over the last two years, I have experimented a lot with my diet. I have tried vegetarianism and eating only raw foods, hoping that I could just eat what I wanted based on being super-restrictive in my choices. It was a resounding failure for me. I felt terrible. My hair fell out. I ended up not losing any weight after an initial 5 pounds or so, and beat myself up constantly.
So, I signed up with Myfitnesspal last week, and started counting calories and really watching my food intake. No special diet other than eating whole foods--you know, stuff that you have to use a cutting board to prepare and is just itself, like a sweet potato or a turnip.
After my first week, I can say that it was actually pretty easy. And fun, too...looking at my charting progress and incorporating it into my day has been a snap, especially with their iPhone app. If you are needing a buddy, my handle is Sflorer.
And that brings me to another change I've made...Facebook.
I read about the emotional manipulation study Facebook did that looks to be partially funded by the Department of Defense. Facebook has been a great tool for me to keep in touch with friends, customers and family over the years, but this manipulation study may have been the last straw for me. Also, the process they use to 'decide' who gets to see your updates are not reliable, and when it comes right down to it, Facebook is ratcheting up their creep factor to a degree that I don't feel comfortable with anymore.
So, I posted an update on my personal page that I will be taking a break from Facebook for two weeks. I want to observe how it feels not to post updates there (other than automatic blog updates that my website pushes), or to see my feeds. I belong to a few really great groups that do add value to my life, so I don't necessarily want to throw the baby out with the bathwater, you know? But I think I want to take a break first, observe how it affects me and further drill down what social media outlets feel right to use.
Another area of my life that I have written about here concerns my anger issues that revolve around what I see breaking down around me on a socio-economic scale. I found a book that I downloaded to my Kindle that has been blowing my mind regarding Sacred Activism.
Anger is an emotion that signals change needs to occur. I have been stymied about what to DO about what I see going on around me, and what I can do myself to move that anger towards positive change.
The book, The Hope, by Andrew Harvey, has perfectly captured my feelings about the Great Death that is occurring and provides a framework to consider in rebirthing something new.
Here is a video with Andrew discussing this idea more in depth.