This is my last post from Arkansas. Shayne and I will have the truck loaded in the next 24 hours and then we drive away.
If I had to sum up my last 14 months here into one word, it would have to be Reflection.
I learned a great deal about my own personal projections outward regarding what is going on inward. That which originates from my thoughts or beliefs, bounces back to me via my daily experiences. My bounce rate over this last year seems to have quickened. An urgency to understand this concept must be a huge life lesson for me.
I now understand that coming back to my childhood home was the best way to really gain this understanding. My brother has been an immense help to me in processing and internalizing all that I have been learning regarding reflection, projection and learning to let things go once the lesson has been learned.
I learned what happens when emotional states and attachments that are harmful to the soul sit and fester...they eventually condense and show up in our bodies, begging to be dealt with once and for all, and then released.
Release. Release. Release.
I learned that when someone criticizes you, often it is themselves they are trying to reach. I learned not to take it personally. If what they say is true, then it's on you to change. If it isn't, realize that they are hurting and are just talking to a convenient mirror. It's on them to realize that the image they are spewing their internal pain toward is really themselves, and release your emotional attachment to the experience.
Release. Release. Release.
That last paragraph was a hard lesson for me, but the way I learned it was now, upon reflection, the perfect way to get it. Amen for that.
I learned that to change my physical experiences, which are just reflections of what I think and believe, I have to change.
The first step is Awareness. I can't change what I am not aware of. What are my daily thoughts? What are my beliefs?
As any good archeologist will attest too, look in the garbage. What is being dumped out? That will give a good indication about what is being taken in.
The best way I know how to sift through my own garbage is via writing. Just stream of consciousness first thing in the morning. Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way is a great tool for sifting through your own mental garbage.
After awareness, discernment.
If what I am currently experiencing sucks big time, that's a big indication that something within needs to change or be adjusted.
I get to discern just what that looks like for myself.
Change the source, change the reflection.
It can be incremental change or it can be dramatic. But I decide on the adjustment.
After the adjustments, see if my life's experiences are more enjoyable and fulfilling.
If they are, the change was needed. If not, back to awareness.
Another reflection tool that has been beneficial is Byron Katie's The Work. Filling out the Judge Your Neighbor worksheet has been a wonderful way to become aware of my thoughts and feelings. The ones that my everyday conscious mind (EGO) loves to push back into the dark recesses of my mind.
The worksheet is a great flashlight.
How did I figure out that Reflection was hugely important to me?
Because I've been dumping it out into my jewelry.
Water is reflective. Water is an emotional element. Tears are salt water, right? They flow when we are moved. Pearls, long drops, water falls, reflective orbs....it's all there.
My creativity was ignited when I made the connection that I needed to release and reflect upon in a deeper way what this huge transitional period of 14 months has meant for me.
Using tools help shape your projections...whether it's a hammer, a book or a worksheet.
Now, it's time for me to move on...
I will be updating my Instagram stream daily with whatever catches my attention over the next week..I would love to see you there. A camera is another great tool to use for reflection and projection learnings...become acutely aware of what attracts you and record it. Patterns develop and understandings occur.
It is really all about you.